Thursday, January 14, 2010

My Invisible Brake

After over a year of being chauffeured around by my 18 year old son I should be used to it, right?! Wrong! Last night while riding home from church I realized why I'm so tensed whenever I came home. I can feel it all over my body. My neck is so stiff. I move as if I'm wearing a neck brace. I don't think the best masseuse can loosen the knot that's growing in my shoulders. Just thinking about my legs and how they're so sore upon the exit of his vehicle makes them hurt as I'm writing this. Why so much drama?! Not with my son, but his with momma. I figured it out last night. It's the brake pedal that's on the passenger's side. My side!

This brake pedal wasn't put in the car by the manufacture. Neither my son nor my husband install it. Who installed the brake pedal that I've used for over a year now and has cause such harm to my body? Some may say it's a figment of my imagination. But how can something that's so real or at least seems so real be my imagination. Could my imagination be running away with me? Of course not. It's real. I use it. Maybe my husband uses it too, but just don't want to admit it.


Maybe I just don't want to admit that my son is a young adult now and he knows how to drive. Maybe I won't admit that it's hard for me, a mom, too see him as a man developing into his own identity. After all, he did tell me when I address him and his brothers by trying to get there attention not to used the word "boys" But they are my boys. Ooops! There I go again not admitting that my son is a young man. Since I am admitting some things, maybe it's time I admit that I installed the invisible brake pedal.

"I installed my invisible brake pedal."


Civilla said...

Oh, what a handsome fellow!!!

I have a brake, too, and my sons are 22 and 20! I'm finally relaxing, though.

Here in our state, kids get their full licenses at 14!!!! That's right, 14! It is a farm state, and farmers need their young kids to drive farm equipment, which is why the age is so young. Mother are trying to get the law changed, but to no avail. I wish they would change the law, and make it older, and just have a special clause for farm kids who need it.

I'll never forger the time my 14-year-old took me driving through town in our pick up. The roads were icy, and he skidded and I thought, "Oh, no, he is going to hit all 10 cars that are parked in front of the bar!!!"

Miraculously, he managed to right the truck and avoid hitting anything. But I aged 10 years that day, I'm sure.

Many kids around here who are 14 get in serious wrecks when taking the car out by themselves for the first time.

Sisters Of Honor said...

I know how you feel. I have gotten much better now. I think it's because she is more nervous about driving me.

~Lisi P. said...

Thank you for this posting. It provides us children a reminder of the eyes and heart of a parent. I always say, "no matter how old I get, I'll never be grown because my parents are still here". This being said, I'll always be their child, no matter how many years go by.

God bless!!